Hi.

Tell me people why is it so fucking hard to get ahead in life, its hard enough to keep above the surface let alone swim in the ocean of life without people bringing you down, you think with all the shit I’ve gone through in my life the great creator would give me a fucking break. "No fuck this guy he seems to be doing alright now root with his life a bit" bastard. Ill just have a running tally of my life so far, ok. I was born in Qld Australia, and moved up near rocky when I was little, I liked it there, it was nice I had friends.

From there I went south to the burnet, near Gayndah. Not so good, I started year 2 there, and was beaten up every day or so till we left when I was in grade 7, the worst time was when to footballers cornered me behind the scout hut and beat me into unconsciousness with a piece of 2x4, not good, I had concussion and had a week of school. From there the happy family moved to the south burnet close to Nanango. It took I week and I was being bullied again. From grade 8 till 12 I never went a day with out a bashing or general nastiness, some of the worse ones where getting knocked out in class with the teacher watching (I was told to get of the floor and stop making a scene) and being slammed head first into a brick wall. When I was 16 I joined the army cadets, later that year a got to watch helplessly as a good friend of mine drowned, he was resuscitated but died a week later in hospital, when I got back to school the main comment that people I new said to my face was that they wished a friend of theirs had died so they could have a week of school. I was in counselling for 6 months. That was 5 years ago, its taken me that long to get my life on track and figure out what I want except to not die a little every single day. But no, it’s just got to keep happening the shits just got to keep coming. Well fuck you very much.